jolly well fuck off

today is a day, a day for me to fuck off. i just wanted to forget today.

all thanks to some stuff that spoilt my mood. all thanks to some people who got me emo. fuck. why everything came crashing down on me today?

scoreline is something to forget. but jj out of soccer tourament is a fact. pissed on the fact that jj fighting spirit is missing. pissed by the fact that some ac bastards came to say "fuck you" in front of the jj crowd at the grandstand. and pissed by ex-fmss students. big fuck to be in ac?

and some people. dont really want to say who. but they really screwed my day. assumption kills. get it?

and i lost $1.50 today. damn the fucking vending machine. i vent my anger on the machine so hard that my junior even tried to ask me to relax. i almost toppled the whole machine.

and damn pissed off by some gangster wannabes who tried to bully one elderly for staring at them. wanted to help, but then those passerbys didnt even want to help. i cant possibly go on and fight on my own, because there are 5 guys around my age to tackle with. pissed with myself too for staring helplessly at the elderly.

and thanks to jo. you really made me deprived of badminton now. fuck those remediations and stuff. hate to go but have to go. bloody hell. ms tiong why the fuck would you want remedials on sats when u jolly well know you dont teach econs well?

another fucked up stuff happened on the bus. saw someone who looked like my ex classmate whom i had crush on during my sec sch days. she's smiling and happily chatting with another guy now. and the guy shows lots of care and concern for her. oh fuck. i really regretted making her suffer lots because i made her cry during sec 1 for giving her too much pressure. even though she forgot about the incident but i still felt damn bad. so bad that i didnt dare to talk to her after that. and it seemed so that she has forgotten about me. sigh.

my heart got pierced today. so deep that blood gushed out from it like a fountain. i guess my wound shall take some time to recover again.